Biar Saja

Ingin saja saya layangkan senyuman terindah kepada awak
Agar hilang segala gundah
Agar terubat jiwa yang resah
Agar sembuh segala sakit
Namun saya hanya mampu tertunduk malu
Bimbang awak terlihat lintasan cinta di mata saya

Ingin saja saya menyapa awak
Untuk menanyakan khabar
Untuk bertukar cerita
Untuk berbalas senda gurau
Namun melihat kelibat awak dari jauh pun sudah buat saya tidak tentu arah

Lantas saya putuskan..

Biar saya jadi hujan
Agar saya jatuh lembut di hati awak
Mendamaikan resah
Menyejukkan amarah

Biar saya jadi angin
Supaya saya dapat menyapa awak dengan santun
Menyampaikan rindu
Membawa desir lagu cinta

Biar saya jadi bintang
Supaya malam awak tidak sunyi tanpa teman
Membawa cahaya dalam kelam
Agar awak tahu, harapan sentiasa ada untuk awak

Biar doa yang saya kirimkan lewat sujud saya pada Tuhan
beri awak petanda bahawa hati ini sudah jatuh suka.

BRAVE

It is bold to fall in love
How could you know when you are falling, there will be someone to catch you?
What would you do, even there is someone spreading his arms to hold you tight,
he is not the one you are hoping for?
What would become of you, if there is no one waiting to embrace you?
Your heart will break and shatter like glass
And its pieces will pierce your body and soul, you could not stop bleeding

Do you think mending a heart is a piece of cake?
You have to gather the pieces and put it together like solving a puzzle
The only difference is that when you are putting the pieces together, your hands might bleed
Even if you get back your heart, will it be in good shape?
With all the scars and patches, it takes the right hands with true and pure love to fix them
When will those hands come for the rescue?
No, you do not know when

See? Falling in love is risky
It takes a brave person to admit that she has fallen in love.

Will It Stay?

That feeling when your heart bounces

and you could not catch a breath

But you are still smiling and your face is shining

And you feel all the happiness in the world belongs to you

Will this feeling stay or fade away or become bitter?

Little Things Called Memories

It is strange how at one point of time, we earnestly want time to fly fast, but when it really passes by, we fervently hope that that one point of time never flies.

To have the chance to go back to where you were fertilized by the sweet and bitter experiences, where you were continuously watered with tests and difficulties until you bloomed as a beautiful invaluable, rarely found flower is exquisite.

And I had that exquisite chance yesterday. It was like unpacking my box of memories and treasured even the littlest things I did with even my most loathed person at that time. All the memories, from the biggest to the smallest surprisingly weighed my heart with longing that my heart was about to explode.

This was the place where my transition from childhood stage to being a teenager took place. It witnessed my embarrassing demeanor and childish acts. It eyed me developed from stage to stage, from immaturity to maturity.

I met friends who did things together. We did bad things and good things and along the way, we learned. We fought over small matters and we made up. We found ways to turn something boring to something fun. We sang songs together, we were the ones who accepted our not mellifluous voices and pretended that we were good singers.

Sometimes, we agreed not to finish our homework so that we would be punished together. At times, when odds prevented us from moving forward, we gathered our spirits and fought them. We shed sweats, blood and tears to achieve what we believed were the best for us.

After years, we met again. And in each meeting. we seemed to never be bored talking about those memories and laughed and sometimes cried thinking of how time changed us and we were still friends accepting each others' weaknesses. Sometimes, I feel it strange to have known our friends' most vital flaws but we still accept them. Then I realize, it is most probably because we had gone through a lot for years and we had already understood each other so to leave them just because of their weaknesses is not worth the memories that we created together.

Writer's Block

"Sit down to write what you have thought, and not to think about what you shall write." William Cobbett

What is there to write if my mind is void with tangled thoughts.

There are times, when I am about to write, when I am about to share what is in my mind, I am stuck.

Di Hari Bahagiamu

Kata orang, yang dinamakan sebetul-betul sahabat adalah dia yang gembira melihat kita bahagia. Justeru, aku cuba sedayaku untuk tersenyum keranamu. Kerna, aku butuh untuk menjadi sahabat terbaik buatmu. Bahagianya aku seikhlasnya kerna mendambakan redha Allah ke atas ukhuwah ini. Bahagianya aku kerna aku saksi begitu banyak yang kau tempuh untuk merangkul bahagia ini. Bahagianya aku kerna kau sudah punya teman untuk kelangsungan mata rantai dakwah Rasulullah.

Maafkan aku kerna tidak bisa ekspresikan rasaku dalam bentuk kata. Hanya mampu dicoret. Mungkin kau tidak bisa tebak apa yang terbuku di qalbu. Namun, ketahuilah demi seutuhnya cinta, demi sekuatnya ikatan ukhuwah ini, aku bahagia bila kau bahagia. =)

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Dia janji
Dalam susah aku
Dalam sesat aku
Dalam jatuh bangunnya aku
Dia siaga di sisiku untuk memimpin

Dan aku juga janji
Tika dia rebah
Tika dia lelah
Tika dia hilang arah
Demi seutuhnya cinta untuk dia
Takkan pernah diri ini lelah membantu dia.